I Do This a Lot

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling them how you feel, or looking into someone’s eyes when they are telling you how they feel?:

I guess hearing how they feel, because you never know what they're going to say. When you're talking to them, and telling them how you feel, I can guarantee that unless you're at loss of words, you know what you're going to say. I mean, when most people tell their partner "I love you." for the first time, it could flop, right? Yes, that can happen, but you don't have to let it.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?:

Last time I was angry, was at my parents. They were laughing at the more revealing underwear I bought. I feel like they still think of me as a little kid when they do that, because I think of myself as old enough to understand that I'm right. I can buy and wear whatever I want with my own money. Who can stop me? Well, they kind of can by like taking it away, but what parent in their right mind would?

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago nonstop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?:

I think I would call home. Tell them that I might not live, and that I love them. Tell them to pray for me. Either that, or I would call something like 911, because they could actually help us, and notify the people's families.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?:

I don't think I tell people until the very end. I would spend that month at home, because that's where the heart is... For me, anyways. My family means a lot to me, and so do my friends. Nearing the... 'end' I think I would tell people.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust:

Trust. Like the person I copied this from said, with trust comes love. I love those who I can trust. They lose my trust by telling someone something I said, they're losing me too.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dog’s life?:

I would definitely save the dog's life. I'm sure by then, I'll be educated enough to be my own boss, and if not, I would be able to get a new one really fast. Although, it seems easier said than done.

7. You are unfaithful to your spouse/significant other. Do you tell him/her? Why or Why not?:

Define unfaithful. Just kidding, I know what it means. I don't think I would be brave enough to cheat. I would be too afraid of feeling guilty, more than about him finding out. I mean, I LOVE Anthony.

8. Your friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you do/say?:

Well obviously, it depends on who says it. I'm already with my best guy friend. That's all I could ask for.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?:

At times, yes. I love my personality and everything, but any more than that, I don't know. My temper pisses me off all the time, so maybe not. I like that I'm completely honest, sincere, and all of those nice things. I would never hurt a soul unless they hurt me. That being said, it works either way. If real me is nice to friend me, it should be in return too, right?

11. Does love = sex?:

It doesn't have to. I mean, go for it. Sex can be defined in two ways. See, there's a Facebook fan page called 'Getting laid' and I read some of the comments, out of curiosity. I saw that a lot of people said that there was a big difference between getting laid and making love. If you love someone, it's all the better.

13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?:

Maybe around, exactly a year ago? I sent Anthony some messages. It was before I even met him. It was like instant. He was flattered, too. Firstly, I thought by it that things were never going to work out. Turns out, they turned out better than expected. Much better.

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a friend, you love them or that you do not love them back?:

It would be harder to tell someone I don't love them. I've told Anthony I loved him every day for almost a year. It's not that difficult. Like, even gazing into his eyes, it's easy to say the truth. Telling someone I don't love them back seems impossible.

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?:

The hardest thing for me to give up would have to be my family and friends. I don't know why, but I think it's because I love them all so much. Like, imagine living with nobody. Having nobody to live for, and nobody to die for. That means a lot to me.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who were they to you?:

Excluding romantic love? Haha, that doesn't happen. I don't lie about love.

18. Imagine: it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?:

Someone strong, like a bodybuilder. LOL.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?:

Hmm, maybe. This is a tough question, because there's a reason, but then again there's a reason not to. Like, everyone feels bad for homeless people, right? But still, most of the time, they've done it to themself. Too much crystal meth.

21. You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your reason for making the decision?:

I guess I would let go of my grandmother, as much as that pains me to say. I only say that because a newborn will be able to grow up, whereas grandparents have to die some time. The kid would know me eventually because he/she would remember the person who let them live. I would be God to that kid.

22. Are you old fashioned?:

I guess in a way I am. I mean, I am musically openminded. I listen to anything. Although, in a way I am not. I know this, because I'm typing this.. And before the eighties, they didn't have computers. My mom was telling me there used to be a Winnipeg Open House channel on tv. She said it was how people got see the houses for sale in the city. Now we all use Com Free or MLS to find houses.

23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?:

It probably sounds pretty stupid, but I was very nice to Breanna's mom. But like other parents, I was afraid she wouldn't like me. (True story!). On the way back, we kept talking about life, and we were so focused on our deep conversation that she missed the turnoff to the street mine is off of. Of course, I told her there was another way, and she said, "Well I'll remember that, for the next time we come to pick you up."

24. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?:

Neither. That's the stupidest question ever.

25. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?:

I think I could only wish for everything to stay how it is. Keep my crappy summer, and all the changes that took place. I learn from my mistakes, and being a perfect machine woman, I wouldn't have the wisdom I have today. I hate mistakes, but in the long run I love learning from them. I love knowing what to say, and what not to say. I love being able to be trusted, and when a mistake or an accident comes around, to pay for it in the end. Sure, the paying part is painful, but it'll all be worth it in the long run.